It’s been such a long time since I wrote something, and I have to blame it on one big project in my life, but I’ll talk about that one at different times. I started this blog as a way to express myself, my own thoughts after a knee injury. It is true, that I did not publish really a lot, especially last year not, but I guess it just was not the right moment, the right topics rushing through my mind. Well, yesterday marks somehow an end of an era, a big last milestone that happened after an injury, surgery, rehabilitation. I was back on skis and I cannot express how happy I am.
Yesterday was such a lovely day, sunny, a lot of snow on slopes and around, all this shaping a perfect panorama views. But the best part of it was, that I was back on skis and enjoying skiing. Before goring to ski, I was of course afraid of many things, that I forgot how to ski, what if I fall again, what if injury happens again. But you know what? Being back on skis felt like being back home, so familiar, full of joy, emotions and even a bit overwhelming. Of course, I was a bit insecure and I had my knee bracelet on, but the feeling of being back, of an accomplishment after such a long and tiring rehabilitation and emotional rollercoaster. Well, that was just priceless!
Being proud of myself does not really happen often. Usually I’m super critical towards everything I do, I could always do things better, faster … but not this time. This time I was super proud of myself, that after everything and regardless of how tough it was too many times, and how many times I did not really feel like going into gym and do strength training (and sometimes I really did not go), I still managed to continue, break through it and yesterday was my award. My big, one of the greatest awards that I have given myself.
The road does not end here, I have to continue working, but a feeling of achieving something I many times doubted I would is amazing. I can do it! I did it! This I have to take further, believe in myself a bit more and go towards new goals.